can you just bloody stop rapping about my results. havent you said enough? i study for the sake of gaining knowledge, not for the sake of whatever government things. like hello. you were the one who forced me to study here when i did not want to. now, you want me to study like shit. like what? am i a robot, always at your bidding? the more you force me, the more i wont do. have you ever said i was good, even when im good in something. you have always scolded me, whether good or bad. you have never spared a thought for my feelings. i dont care how people see you. i see you in my own way, my own perspective. why should i show you respect, when you dont show me respect. like my feelings werent hurt whenever you humiliate me. like i dont have feelings. like im not human. and i think chemistry sucks big time. it is such a waste of time, for someone who doesnt understand any shit about it, and for someone who has totally no interest in it. i think it is a waste of time, so what? i study, i ask, but i dont learn. i dont understand chemistry. if i am interested in that subject, i'll be scoring, i'll be understanding. but i dont. chemistry used to be okay. but now, no more. do you know how much i wished, i have never been in singapore? depression, broken friendships, relationships, results, everything! think im like you? if you want to complain, so be it! think i care? do you really know what i want? handphones, laptops, branded stuffs, whatever! i dont need those! i only want you to understand me. is it really that hard? for everything i do, you always scold me. i do anything you asked me to. you scold me, i think about my faults, even when i've done nothing wrong. but you find fault with me too many times, when i've done nothing at all. do you know how hurt i feel? i feel like i have never been loved! not anymore. i dont care a damn about what's happening no more. and i wont listen to you anymore.