today's ptc was the worst one ever. how i HATE you! but im beginning to feel guilty about mrs sim. she talked to my bloody grandma about me being attentive in class when i wasnt, and didnt rat on me eating during her lessons. such a nice teacher! i felt guilty about badmouthing her.

this next part is going to be rude. and im voicing out my unhappiness, alright. i dont care what you guys think la. i just hate her!

eh please la. what i do is none of your business. how many times must i say, I WANT TO GO POLY AND NOT JC. AND I PICK WHATEVER I WANT TO STUDY, NOT YOU! i dont like people controlling me and what you always do, is to tell me where to go and what to do. take a look, im fifteen. FIFTEEN! cant i even make decisions on my own?

oh BLOODY YOU! i like to be in front of the computer all day long, so what? you dont order me around. you think if you nag at me all day long, i'll turn into the perfect person that you want over night? like hello? let me tell you this. im NOT, and FOREVER NOT, going to change into the perfect person in your eyes! i be myself, and not be manipulated by you!

and stop comparing me with my sisters! so what if i do better than them? do you ever praise me? NO! you dont even scold them! and if i do worser than them, all you do is scold me. do you ever encourage me? NO! you praise them like they are the best in the world, but what do you treat me as? does it mean that im the eldest, then i have to be the best?! what the fuck is this man?! what is the world coming to!

and my handphone bills. you said my dad says not to exceed $50 each month. like please! he said TRY not to exceed. are you deaf or something? oh, i forgot. you're OLD! you scold me when i exceed the monthly bill. i offered to pay it myself, but you said no. for goodness' sake. i want to pay the rest, but you didnt even give me the chance to! then you will confiscate my phone. like hello? how long has it been my my bill hasnt exceed? if you dont know, let me tell you. VERY LONG! so just kindly shut up if you dont know the facts.

and you complain whenever i show attitude. at least i DONT talk back. take a look at moses, he does. he even push you, scold you vulgarities. but DO I? i DONT! please make sure you get your facts right before nagging at me. PROVE ME WRONG! bitch ..

oh fuck it fuck it fuck it. whatever is this world coming to? so what if im stupid? i admit i am. but it doesnt give you the right to control me, nag at me. just fuck off.